You feel deadened, numb, paralyzed by unhappiness, maybe even depression. These are the times your prayers get angry. At God.
"This life is not what I want, God! It's not really LIFE! My dreams are shattered! My belief in myself is gone. Some days I feel like my belief in You, God is gone! Why do You reject me, God? Why do You hide Your Face from me? I feel like I'm on the front lines and You are back hiding in the Medic's Tent! Heal me! Rescue me!"
And, if you pray hard enough, and then relax enough to be still, you will hear a small Voice whispering deep in your heart. God is speaking to you. Always. Just listen.
"Believe. My Light will never scatter all your darkness, but My Light is a Lamp which guides you so you can see a path and begin to walk again.
"My Light in you, My Lamp, can set a mighty Fire blazing inside you! The Fire of My Holy Spirit! My Holy Spirit will fill you with enthusiasm and courage! Enthusiasm for dreaming, for believing that everything you experience and that you do has meaning, eternal significance. Courage to either accept that You are where I want you to be, or courage to set a new course for a new direction in your life.
"I will never abandon you, My Child. Ask continually for My Help. Ask for My Holy Spirit's gifts. Trust that either your life will change, or YOU will change. Change is good, necessary - and I do not desire for you to remain paralyzed. "Get up and walk! Leave your sins behind. Leave your lack of belief in yourself behind for I live in you and you are beautiful, wonderful. Leave your sickness of spirit behind even if you live with sickness. Leave your fear behind so I can lead you to a new place in your heart or in your life.
"I love you with an everlasting love. Let Me set you on fire with My love. And Your light will blaze on a hillside for all to see and to marvel at your brilliance."